tempted to write

got a scrap today from a friend cum foe... he somehow went thru my blog.. and was inspired enuf to scrap me bout it... i think this was our first communication in past 2 yrs...
so i was surprised... i also went thru my blogs... but cudnt understand what was so tempting...
anyway, his effort tempted me enough to post one more stupid blog...

lets talk bout him only... as we share a complex realtion.... his name-Jaydev Thampan
many ppl think he is an underachiever who did not utilize his potential.... surprisingly many think the same bout me.. so i m not sure of the truth... but thats a different story...
we met in during our degree course... had a common friend circle in first year... then few of my supposedly close friends picked up fight with him... and we stopped talking... i still dont know why... but we maintained our enmity with a lot of dignity...
we spent one full year in adjacent rooms... hardly talking to each other... even after we passed out.. we maintained the distance... acknowledging our differences upfront...
coincidently we shared a common friend in mumbai.. so we met in mumbai as well, despite the fact that both of us didnt want to, and even boozed together... without talking much directly :)
we r both very opinionated guys and therefore there is every chance of argument.. and we consciously averted it in past 5-6yrs..
and the surprises of surprise, we are in each others frnd list on orkut...
i somehow am getting a feeling that the circle has come full turn... lets see...
but whatever it is, the truth is that i enjoyed our "not-talking" to each other, not coz we have different views or anything.... coz of the dignity in not-talking, coz there are ceratin things that holded us from talking... my articulation is as poor as i am, so i cant express it well in words.. i guess if he reads it, he can understand....

Moving to Mumbai

so i m finally moving back to mumbai... probably this weekend...
yesterday, when i was asked to describe my stint in cal... i said, professionaly 'average' and personally 'happening'.... i lived 'one day at a time' in true sense of the world... never bothering what will happen tomorrow.... its very difficult to understand this, lot of people use this phrase... but very few live this phrase.... and the worst part is that if you live like that.... life becomes more complex, more difficult and in turn, more happening...
and that is exactly what has been happening with me....
of course, there have been positives out of it... and the most important positive is that i have been able to take a decision, which i had not taken for ages... and delaying it has made things increasingly more and more difficult.... but finally i am not bothered bout the results.... finally i have put my foot down to say enough is enough...
now, i cant expose my life on blogs... after all, i have to maintain the sanctity of a public platform you see..... so i ll let it rest here only.

Lets come back to the title... i am moving back to mumbai after 4.5mnths.... long time, especially when it was supposed to last for 'a month or so'.... as our HR had told me....
i made quite a few friends, lost a few, got bored of few.... and the very few remaining... i am taking with myself... not physically of course, but they we might continue for some time.....
i can even say that i have seen a bit of cal... not the visitor attractions, but now i have a feel of the city.... and more or less... i like the city with all its dimensions....

professionally, i was not able to develop a connect wid my director... even though i wanted it to happen.... it was not so bad with rest of the staff.... at least most of them can feel my presence.... that is enough for me to feel significant....
interestingly, a few people thought that i have a good dressing sense (at least they said so).... and my shoulders became an inch broader for a few minutes....
i think mumbai has improved my dressing sense a wee bit... now at least i dont need to feel embarrased bout it.... not when i am any other city i guess....
also, i had guts to participate in a corporate quiz.... and a high standard one at that.... and surprises of surprise, i didnt performed too badly in it.... not that i got any prize, but it was far better than my epectations.... primarily due to effort of my team-mate..... who wud be cursing himself for making a team wid me anyways... whatever it is, i enjoyed it...

In Kolkata

Writing after a long time, more than 2 months...
well, the news is that i m now in kolkata for a year or so... unless of course i change company again... and i m bored of doing that now.. lets see.....
but as of now, as my director had put it "ab to aap samajhiye aap calcutta ke ho gaye"... and like always in my life, i dont know what to do.... so i am accpeting whatever life gives me.

like all of us invariably do, i have also made friends here... i dont think i can live without them anyways.. my life would become even more pointless then.
wat i was saying is that i have found way to kill time here... i will get my stuff from mum and buy a tv, so that i dont have any probs in killing time... channel surfing is one of the best ways of killing time... and i do that often...

now that i also get some disposable income... i am getting ideas how to dispose it... laptop is one, car is still a fight, and of course i am gonna get screwed soon enough by marrying... so i plan to dispose it as soon as i get it.... i mean its better to dispose it urself, rather than waiting for somebody to do the needful... at least i will see a few places or have a few things in the bargain...
actually i had gone to gangtok in dec, to frnds marrige in jan n now planning for puri.. not bad really.

i also have been talking a lot of gyan these days, in fact giving a lot of gyan to people... it satiates your ego, when people listen to you and appreciate you for that... though after a few years you will realize that you have wasted huge amounts of time doing that.... but its fun going thru the process... i have gone thru it... and i make others feel that i m more 'evolved'... god knows wat that means... but these things have an attraction.. i enjoy talking all this crap... it is one of the things i am good at... confusing myself and confusing others...